He heals me.

Told him my biggest secret
And he told me four.
He smiled at me and said:
that makes me love you more.
And then he made me laugh,
And I knew it was a sign
That he was a man that I wanted in my life.

And with every passing day,
I feel more and more of that way

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He heals me.

I can play him songs,
all through the night,
And he will listen to every line,
And even when I'm wrong, he is still kind

He chooses his words wisely
when he tells me I'm not right.

And yes he is a beautiful man,
But he is also a beautiful friend.

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me

The moment that we met, he made me smile.
He has so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea, how long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime, forever or a year.
But for the first time in my life I'm not worried about the future,
Because we have such a wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out, it's all right
Cause he's already changed my life.

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me.

I choose

Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.

And I choose
to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be authentic in everything I do
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.

And I choose, to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be authentic in everything I do,
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey hey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did 'cause life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!

And I choose to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be courageous in everything I do,
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

Wings of forgiveness

I just want you to know, after everything that we've been through,
I just want you to know that I still love you, that I still love you

Had to go across the water
just to find what was here in my heart all along
spent so much time trying to be right
that I was dead wrong
if Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
surely I can forgive you for your passion,
you're only human
let's shake free this gravity of resentment
and fly high, and fly high

You're only human
let's shake free this gravity of judgment
and fly high on the wings of forgiveness

Had to run to the arms of curiosity, just to find what was here in my life all along
I had found that the art of simplicity
simply means making peace with your complexity
if Gandhi can forgive persecution, surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I'm only human
let's shake free this gravity of resentment, and fly high, and fly high
You're only human,
let's shake free this gravity of judgment,
and fly high on the wings of forgiveness.

I've searched for romance, flowers and affection
what I found is a lesson of what love really is
found the game of love is not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about how much you can give

After everything that we've been through I just want you to know that I still love you
I want you to know that I forgive you,
(thank you for teaching me how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know, you taught me how to fly
and I wrote this song to tell you this: I'm better 'cause you taught me how to give.

I took a swim in the sea of guilt and misery
to find myself on an island, in the middle of nowhere
in my solitude, I asked to know the highest truth
and what I was told is to let own self be true.

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion, surely we can survive and find a resolution
Let's keep it moving
let's shake free this gravity of resentment and fly high, and fly high
You're only human
let's shake free this gravity of judgment and fly high, and fly high
let's keep it moving let's shake free this gravity of commitment
and fly high on the wings of forgiveness

After everything that we've been through I just want you to know that I still love you
I want you to know that I still love you
and I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this:
I'm better 'cause you taught me how to give

I still love you
I want you to know,
I still love you
want you to know,
I still love you (and I always will love you)
and I wanna let you know
I forgive you
I wanna let you know that I still love you.

runaway

Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane, never to return again. I don't know what she is made of, I would like to be that brave.

Private party.

I'm having a private party, ain't nobody here but me, my angels, and my guitar singin' baby, look how far we've come here. I'm havin' a private party, learning how to love me, celebrating the woman I've become.

I tried to call my mother, but she didn't get where I was going; I called my boyfriend and he said 'call me back a little later baby'. I hung up the phone, I felt so alone, started to feel a little pity, that's when I realized, I gotta find the joy inside of me.

I'm gonna take off all my clothes, look at myself in the mirror
We're gonna have a conversation
We're gonna heal the disconnection
I don't remember when it started, but this is where it's gonna end
My body is beautiful and sacred, and I'm gonna celebrate it

All my life I've been looking for somebody else to make me whole. But I had to learn the hard way true love began with me, this is not ego or vanity,
I'm just celebrating me.

Sometimes I'm alone but never lonely
That's what I've come to realize
I've learned to love the quiet moments, the Sunday mornings of life
Where I can reach deep down inside, or out into the universe
I can laugh until I cry or I can cry away the hurt.

Beautiful.

The time is right, I'm gonna pack my bags,
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountains I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow.

I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences
The sky opens to my prayers.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...

Please understand
That it's not that I don't care
But right know these walls are closing in on me

I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place where I can breathe,
I can breathe

I wanna go to place were I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might

I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light,
Where wrong becomes right.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...

i would like you to know

You see the smile that's on my mouth? it's hiding the words that don't come out. See, the life i've had can make a good man turn bad (so please, please, please, let me get what i want this time)
Couples seem happy in this stupid park, i don't need reminding i'm alone- I hate this time before I see you again, I hate these people that are not you, this photo that I've got of you, I hate this empty room that you're not in. I hate my body because it's not in you, I hate these clothes that keep me from your skin. I hate the need to eat when I can't eat with you, I hate these empty places that you've been. I hate these buildings, roads and fields, they're only useless, empty space, that just separates me from you.

There was a huge explosion, everyone was killed. Except for you and I, we had to re-populate the world. Then when I awoke, alone in my room with my ellaborate plans, so full of angst... The two of us were kidnapped, and locked up in a room. Left alone for days, we had to find something to do. Then when i awoke, i'd missed my stop again, my head in my hands...

Ignoring you to make you want me was my only strategy. What would you say if I took those words away? Don't tell me it's not worth trying for (you can't tell me it's not worth dying for)
Because even when i was flat broke, you made me feel like a million bucks (you do).
I still consider you my best friend, i always meant to be the one to make a call or write a little letter, but i know there'll be no happy endings now. The world carries on without you, but nothing remains the same. I'll be lost without you until the last of days (i must be the biggest fool on this earth).
I only know I am better where you are, I only know that I BELONG where you are- I just lie here and try to fix the moment in my mind. We could go for a walk in the snow in the night, we could kiss until the morning comes, but you know, that wouldn't be enough. Hollow and sad, drifting like ghosts through the crowds. How can we come to terms with ordinary life again now that we've tasted something more?
And if i can't be with you, this is the best my body can do: Lying in a haze of you (it's the closest thing to being with you). I need to walk across this town, feel the rain on my face, sort these feelings out. Because if i can't be with you, i don't know what i'm going to do, except fill myself with thoughts of you. It's the closest thing to being with you (standing in the drizzle).
If i beg and if i cry would it change the sky tonight? Will it give me sunlight? Should i wait for you to call? is there any hope at all? Are you drifting by? And then i lie, all by myself. I see your face, i hear your voice, my heart stays faithful. And time has come and time has passed, and if it's good it's got to last (it feels so right). I try to reach for you, i can almost feel you, you're nearly here and then, you disappear.
I just want you to know, after everything that we've been through, I just want you to know that I still love you, that I forgive you (you're only human). And I thought of all the bad luck, and all the struggles we went through. How I lost me and you lost you. I've been learning to live without you now, but I miss you sometimes. The more I know, the less I understand (all the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again). I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter, but my will gets weak, and my thoughts seem to scatter. But I think it's about forgiveness, even if you don't love me anymore. I wanna be happily ever after, and my heart is so shattered. But I know it's about forgiveness.

It's more than just words: it's tears and rain. I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain, all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray. Baby, take me on a journey, I've been thinking lately; I could use a little time alone with you. Crazy, let's do something maybe, please don't take your time. You got me right there where you want me.

I don't want another pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold, I don't want my love to go to waste, I want you and your beautiful soul (I know that you are something special) You're the one I wanna chase, you're the one I wanna hold.
I'm here alone (didn't wanna leave) my heart won't move, it's incomplete. Tell me, how I'm supposed to breathe with no air? Can't live, can't breathe with no air. It's how I feel whenever you ain't there. There's no air. So, how do you expect me to live alone with just me? It's so hard for me to breathe (tell me how you're going to be without me).

You need some time to be alone. Then you will find what you've always known. I'm the one who really loves you baby, i've been knocking at your door. As long as i'm living, I'll be waiting. As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there. Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting. Whenever you need me, I'll be there.
I've seen you cry into the night. I feel your pain, can I make it right? (I realize there's no end in sight, yet still I wait for you to see the light). So tell me when you hear my heart stops, You're the only one that knows. Tell me when you hear my silence, there's a possibility I wouldn't know.
I need more time, just to make things right (I wish that I could make you laugh and make you feel whole again).
And I hate how much I love you boy, I can't stand how much I need you. One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me, and maybe your kiss won't make me weak. But no one in this world knows me the way you know me, so you'll probably always have a spell on me.
They say watch what you ask for, cause you might receive. But if you ask me tomorrow I'll say the same thing (give me half a chance, i'll prove this to you).
Oh well. Enough said.
I know it's over - still I cling, (I don't know where else I can go).