You see the smile that's on my mouth? it's hiding the words that don't come out. See, the life i've had can make a good man turn bad (so please, please, please, let me get what i want this time)
Couples seem happy in this stupid park, i don't need reminding i'm alone- I hate this time before I see you again, I hate these people that are not you, this photo that I've got of you, I hate this empty room that you're not in. I hate my body because it's not in you, I hate these clothes that keep me from your skin. I hate the need to eat when I can't eat with you, I hate these empty places that you've been. I hate these buildings, roads and fields, they're only useless, empty space, that just separates me from you.
There was a huge explosion, everyone was killed. Except for you and I, we had to re-populate the world. Then when I awoke, alone in my room with my ellaborate plans, so full of angst... The two of us were kidnapped, and locked up in a room. Left alone for days, we had to find something to do. Then when i awoke, i'd missed my stop again, my head in my hands...
Ignoring you to make you want me was my only strategy. What would you say if I took those words away? Don't tell me it's not worth trying for (you can't tell me it's not worth dying for)
Because even when i was flat broke, you made me feel like a million bucks (you do).
I still consider you my best friend, i always meant to be the one to make a call or write a little letter, but i know there'll be no happy endings now. The world carries on without you, but nothing remains the same. I'll be lost without you until the last of days (i must be the biggest fool on this earth).
I only know I am better where you are, I only know that I BELONG where you are- I just lie here and try to fix the moment in my mind. We could go for a walk in the snow in the night, we could kiss until the morning comes, but you know, that wouldn't be enough. Hollow and sad, drifting like ghosts through the crowds. How can we come to terms with ordinary life again now that we've tasted something more?
And if i can't be with you, this is the best my body can do: Lying in a haze of you (it's the closest thing to being with you). I need to walk across this town, feel the rain on my face, sort these feelings out. Because if i can't be with you, i don't know what i'm going to do, except fill myself with thoughts of you. It's the closest thing to being with you (standing in the drizzle).
If i beg and if i cry would it change the sky tonight? Will it give me sunlight? Should i wait for you to call? is there any hope at all? Are you drifting by? And then i lie, all by myself. I see your face, i hear your voice, my heart stays faithful. And time has come and time has passed, and if it's good it's got to last (it feels so right). I try to reach for you, i can almost feel you, you're nearly here and then, you disappear.
I just want you to know, after everything that we've been through, I just want you to know that I still love you, that I forgive you (you're only human). And I thought of all the bad luck, and all the struggles we went through. How I lost me and you lost you. I've been learning to live without you now, but I miss you sometimes. The more I know, the less I understand (all the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again). I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter, but my will gets weak, and my thoughts seem to scatter. But I think it's about forgiveness, even if you don't love me anymore. I wanna be happily ever after, and my heart is so shattered. But I know it's about forgiveness.
It's more than just words: it's tears and rain. I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain, all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray. Baby, take me on a journey, I've been thinking lately; I could use a little time alone with you. Crazy, let's do something maybe, please don't take your time. You got me right there where you want me.
I don't want another pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold, I don't want my love to go to waste, I want you and your beautiful soul (I know that you are something special) You're the one I wanna chase, you're the one I wanna hold.
I'm here alone (didn't wanna leave) my heart won't move, it's incomplete. Tell me, how I'm supposed to breathe with no air? Can't live, can't breathe with no air. It's how I feel whenever you ain't there. There's no air. So, how do you expect me to live alone with just me? It's so hard for me to breathe (tell me how you're going to be without me).
You need some time to be alone. Then you will find what you've always known. I'm the one who really loves you baby, i've been knocking at your door. As long as i'm living, I'll be waiting. As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there. Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting. Whenever you need me, I'll be there.
I've seen you cry into the night. I feel your pain, can I make it right? (I realize there's no end in sight, yet still I wait for you to see the light). So tell me when you hear my heart stops, You're the only one that knows. Tell me when you hear my silence, there's a possibility I wouldn't know.
I need more time, just to make things right (I wish that I could make you laugh and make you feel whole again).
And I hate how much I love you boy, I can't stand how much I need you. One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me, and maybe your kiss won't make me weak. But no one in this world knows me the way you know me, so you'll probably always have a spell on me.
They say watch what you ask for, cause you might receive. But if you ask me tomorrow I'll say the same thing (give me half a chance, i'll prove this to you).
Oh well. Enough said.
I know it's over - still I cling, (I don't know where else I can go).
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