can't help this feeling

yeah you.

I thought I would be content just to get your friendship back. But I always want more and more and more, it's kinda hard not to like you.

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short

- author unknown

I can't keep drowning for you.

You were it, my first love, I think the closest I’ve ever come. We were perfect for each other. And you made me so insanely happy, and vice versa. I know I did, from your smile down to your demands for hugs and kisses in your bed. We didn’t last long. I got too close and you took off, taking my heart with you.

I spent months trying to recover, trying desperately to recover. At first, falling in love with you, it felt like I was drowning, but the water was warm so it almost felt luxurious, enjoyable, like moving through warm honey. But then, you left, and it was like the water turned to ice and my lungs started to jam up and I couldn't breathe. I was struggling, kicking, failing to get to the top, because my heart felt dead. My limbs felt frozen in place, and I have no clue how I reached the surface. But I did, and the first breath I took was so painful, and the second, and the third. Eventually, I could hold myself up but I was still shivering for a while, even after I dragged myself out of that water. I spent 6 months, trying desperately to pull myself up, I was frozen all over. Yes you left me alone. I got up, but I'm still lonely. And I'm going to have to sit and pick up the pieces, though I don't even know if I have the energy to do it this time.

That's it, I can’t keep drowning for you.

runaway

Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane, never to return again. I don't know what she is made of, I would like to be that brave.

This too shall pass

I've achieved so much in life,
but I'm an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine,
but my emotions are bankrupt.

My body is nice and strong,
but my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
but when night falls, so do my tears.

Sometimes the beat is so loud in my heart
that I can barely tell our voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
that I can barely hear what God says

But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

When the one that loved me the most,
turned around and hurt me the worst
Been doing my best to move on,
but the pain just keeps singing me songs.

My head and my heart are at war,
cause love ain't happening the way I want it
Feel like I'm about to break down,
can't hear the light at the end of the tunnel.
It's when I pray for healing in my heart
to be put back together what is torn apart
and I pray for quiet in my head
that I can hear clearly what God says

But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past,
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

All of a sudden I realized
that it only hurts worst to fight it
So I embrace my shadow, and hold on to the morning light

I hear the angels whisper that trouble don't have to last always
I hear the angels whisper even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday
I hear my angels whisper, I hear my angels whisper
This too shall pass.

Private party.

I'm having a private party, ain't nobody here but me, my angels, and my guitar singin' baby, look how far we've come here. I'm havin' a private party, learning how to love me, celebrating the woman I've become.

I tried to call my mother, but she didn't get where I was going; I called my boyfriend and he said 'call me back a little later baby'. I hung up the phone, I felt so alone, started to feel a little pity, that's when I realized, I gotta find the joy inside of me.

I'm gonna take off all my clothes, look at myself in the mirror
We're gonna have a conversation
We're gonna heal the disconnection
I don't remember when it started, but this is where it's gonna end
My body is beautiful and sacred, and I'm gonna celebrate it

All my life I've been looking for somebody else to make me whole. But I had to learn the hard way true love began with me, this is not ego or vanity,
I'm just celebrating me.

Sometimes I'm alone but never lonely
That's what I've come to realize
I've learned to love the quiet moments, the Sunday mornings of life
Where I can reach deep down inside, or out into the universe
I can laugh until I cry or I can cry away the hurt.

what if

Happy Birthday Girl

I hate this job 'cause I don't work with you.
I hate this mood that I'm in.
I hate the phone when it's not you.
I hate this time before I see you again.
I hate these people that are not you.
This photo that I've got of you.
I hate this empty room that you're not in.

Happy Birthday Girl.
You know I can't be with you. Of course I can't be with you, but I want to say
I'm happy with you
Unhappy without you.
And I hope you are, a happy birthday girl.
I hate my body 'cause it's not in you.
I hate these clothes that keep me from your skin.
I hate the need to eat when I can't eat with you.
I hate these empty places that you've been.
I hate these buildings, roads and fields; they're only useless, empty space that just seperates me from you.

Happy Birthday Girl.
You know I can't be with you.
Of course I can't be with you.
But I hope you are a happy birthday girl.
Lovers should be together,
And though we are apart.
You know I can't be with you.

Of course I can't be with you.
Lovers should be together
And it seems we are apart,
But I want to say;
I'm happy with you, unhappy without you.
I'm happy with you.
I'm happy with you.
Unhappy without you.

I want to tell you

I want to tell you
My head is filled with things to say
When you're here
All those words, they seem to slip away

When I get near you,
The games begin to drag me down
It's all right
I'll make you maybe next time around

But if I seem to act unkind
It's only me, it's not my mind
That is confusing things.

I want to tell you
I feel hung up but I don't know why,
I don't mind
I could wait forever, I've got time

Sometimes I wish I knew you well,
Then I could speak my mind and tell you
Maybe you'd understand

I want to tell you
I feel hung up but I don't know why,
I don't mind
I could wait forever, I've got time, I've got time, I've got time.

little things.

And I can't stand you. Must everything you do make me wanna smile? Can I not like you for a while? No. You won't let me.

Sometimes

Sometimes the world feels like such a cold, dead place.

Beautiful.

The time is right, I'm gonna pack my bags,
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountains I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow.

I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences
The sky opens to my prayers.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...

Please understand
That it's not that I don't care
But right know these walls are closing in on me

I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place where I can breathe,
I can breathe

I wanna go to place were I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might

I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light,
Where wrong becomes right.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...