sábado, julio 17, 2010

fruit machine


You
keep playing me like a fruit machine
Putting in change systematically
Winning streak that you had over me
Has turned into your broken tragedy
You’ve hit the bottom one hundred times before
Now feel the fever as I leave you wanting more
You thought you could turn and walk away
Taking chances that weren’t yours to take
Win? I don’t think so my foolish boy!
Watch the next one taking all the joy
Hold me, nudge me, spinning me around
Where’s the money? Can’t hear that clinking
Ka-ching, Ka-ching
Ka-ching, Ka-ching
Ka-ching, Ka-ching
Ka-ching, Ka-chinggg!

You keep playing me like a fruit machine
Overstretch your generosity!
Thought of bandits leading you astray
The little we had, you’ve thrown it all away
Go! Go! Go! (Yeah you’re on a roll)
Go! Go! Go! (Yeah you’re on a low)
Go! Go! Go! Go!

You find it hard to stop now
You’re running like a steam train
Oh, I like the way that you do that
Ka-ching, Ka-ching!

jueves, julio 15, 2010

f#ck

I love you and it hurts and I know it's stupid and you don't give a shit. Maybe all the unused feelings I had for the past months of being alone have been poured into you simply because there isn’t any other outlet. But that’s just me being logical. Being logical about feelings that are so illogical I laugh at myself because I find the entire concept of falling head over heels utter nonsense. It’s ridiculous. Sometimes I wish I could escape. I wish I could go somewhere else, where everything didn't constantly remind me of you. Just run away. God, I feel so dumb.

miércoles, julio 14, 2010

I just don't understand.

I’ve always been able to control everything, except for my heart, especially around you. When you walk into a room, there is no controlling that light-headed feeling along with a serious bout of butterflies. No matter how many times my head has tried to talk myself out of you, it seems to me, that love conquers all sorts of rationality.
You proved not to be ready for any sort of serious commitment, and now you may be, but I’m far too afraid to ask. I want you and your heart so terribly bad, but my fear of rejection is crippling me.
We’ve had our ups and downs. I’ve convinced myself I hated you, I’ve convinced myself you didn’t care about me. I’ve told all my friends that you are a silly guy who I could do much better than, and they agree. But I always let you right back in. It is like you are the only person who I’ve ever given a key to my heart. You know my goals, my hopes, my fears, my struggles. I can try to hide them from you with my sharp words and short answers, but you are the only one who seems to be able to read the thoughts right behind my eyes, and I don’t want anyone else. I can’t say I will wait for you, but my heart knows I will. I’m so afraid you will fall for someone else. With you, I never really know. Could your charm be deceiving me into thinking that you really care? That is what my head tells me, night after night. But when you ask me how i'm dealing with life and tell me you believe in me, it's hard to think that you are just trying to be nice. And then you start acting strange. Your texts are cold, you are online for five minutes and then you're gone, you talk to other girls... And I hate it. I hate myself for putting me in such jeopardy. When I don't talk with you for a while, the feelings are intensified even more. It is so hard for me to resist you, and I wonder if you feel the same way. And even if you do, I wonder if you are too afraid to do anything about it. You are my puzzle. I can control every other aspect of my life, but my feelings for you never seem to dwindle. I just wish we could start putting this puzzle together.

martes, julio 13, 2010

A list of feelings

















nostalgia

longing
anxiety
anticipation
contentment
elation
love
understanding
nervousness
decisiveness
melancholy
hopefulness

sábado, julio 10, 2010

A smidgen of radiance



I've done a lot of thinking lately. The kind of thinking that only occurs when you're pressed between bedsheets and the clock is staring back at you in bright red 3am's and your mind is playing a constant loop of memories you'd rather forget. Let's face it: My love life is pretty much a giant shit show. I've had my heart ripped out of my chest one too many times at the young age of 18. It's a mix of youthful idealism and hope and a desperate desire to believe in someone against all odds. It's the lure of breathing in a familiar smell while tucked in the arms of someone you've silently loved for years, even though better judgment says he'll hurt you again.
Now we are together, but just friends. You are there for me to get over my many mistakes. You are still nursing a bruised and broken heart. You make me want to believe in something – in wishing on shooting stars and being just friends. I thought that I just needed you as a friend. Just you. Nothing more. Nothing less. You are someone to share my secrets with and to cuddle up with when I am having trouble sleeping. You are someone who makes me smile. I thought this was enough. Turns out, it isn’t anywhere near enough. You know just how to wind me up and you get annoyed over silly things. We have our flaws and our little arguments, but you were the one who taught me how to love. I love your hugs. I love your enchanting smile. I love the many things you do. I love how cute you look when you’re angry. I love how you’re shy. I loved it when I could feel you smiling when we kissed. I loved our snuggles. I love how you make me laugh. That's why I love you, your million different characters never failed to interest me. I just love you for you. I can’t explain why, it transcends explanation. Like I'm talking head over heels, stars in your eyes in L-O-V-E. I love you with all my heart even though I know you aren't perfect. But I know this is the best for us because I'm learning. It really is the hardest way but that's the only way. This pain lets me know that I'm capable of feeling. Sadness was, for months, the only passion that let me know there was blood in these veins. I thought a lot about how I could never really figure you out, because at times you would lock yourself up in your own little world, one I could never get access to. I could sometimes find this mesmerization amusing, interesting, but then it had got me feeling more and more left out, until I found myself standing on the outside of your snowbubble, knocking on the glass. And I thought about life before you, how my world used to be, what I used to be into, what I used to think mattered. And I thought about how life would be after you. And my thoughts ran to how you made me see things from a different point of view, how I sometimes managed to see through the keyhole to your galaxy, how coffee tasted better when you sat opposite the table telling me one of your stories, how times with you I then thought of bad actually now seemed better than anything else I could ever see in the future without you. Now I can appreciate everything. Most importantly, I appreciate you. Could this all be real, will I finally get my happily ever after? I guess I'll wait with my heart longing, impatiently, for your comeback.

He heals me.














Told him my biggest secret
And he told me four.
He smiled at me and said:
that makes me love you more.
And then he made me laugh,
And I knew it was a sign
That he was a man that I wanted in my life.

And with every passing day,
I feel more and more of that way

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He heals me.

I can play him songs,
all through the night,
And he will listen to every line,
And even when I'm wrong, he is still kind

He chooses his words wisely
when he tells me I'm not right.


And yes he is a beautiful man,
But he is also a beautiful friend.

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me

The moment that we met, he made me smile.
He has so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea, how long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime, forever or a year.
But for the first time in my life I'm not worried about the future,
Because we have such a wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out, it's all right
Cause he's already changed my life.

He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me,
He knows the real me,
And he accepts me, he never hurts me.
He heals me.

jueves, julio 08, 2010

& time will fly



I get weak I get weary I miss sleep I get moody
I'm in thoughts I write songs I'm in love
I walk on.
Fingers crossed, my time is coming now.

Don't you go.

jueves, julio 01, 2010

Even crawling is moving forward.



When you left the second time around, i didn't know what to do with myself. I was broken, hopeless, hurt, cold, scared, depressed... I just wanted you back. I would unfriend you from Facebook and msn hoping that you'd miss me, or that something in your stupid brain would click and you'd want me again. I would spend my days just sitting in my room, thoughts running through my mind like a busy highway. I would just cry, and cry, and cry. And just when time had passed and i was finally getting better, something would set me off and i'd pour my heart out. And then i would move on again, and then i would relapse and dream of you. And then i would get hurt and move on again, and then something would set me off two months later and i'd be back to talking to you. I was pathetic, i'll be the first to admit it. But a broken heart makes you do unthinkable things. It makes you crazy. For the longest time, i just felt broken. That's the only way to describe it. I wanted to give up on my life, on my heart, on love, on men. I would go out, have too many drinks, be with guys, lead them on, play with their heads... just to get back in some way, even if it wasn't directly to you. I wanted to be heartless. I truly felt like I would never feel for another man the way i felt for you, so why even bother trying? I felt like a zombie. Actually, i just felt nothing at all. You were moving on with your life. You were now a stranger. You were happy without me. And time just slowed down for me.

It's been 8 months since you left me. It's been a month and a half since my last relapse over you. I'm finally getting the cue to move on. My heart is finally getting tired of beating in hopes that you'll come back. My mind is finally tired of replaying memories and haunting me with dreams. My fingers are finally tired of typing out your phone number. My lips are finally tired of craving yours. I'm getting there. Slowly but surely, time is crawling on, but even crawling is moving forward.

sábado, junio 26, 2010

I choose

















Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.

And I choose
to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be authentic in everything I do
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.

And I choose, to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be authentic in everything I do,
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey hey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did 'cause life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!

And I choose to be the best that I can be.
I choose to be courageous in everything I do,
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.

domingo, junio 20, 2010

















Easy like Sunday morning
Like an angel calling
He's taking me all in
I'm embracing him with my skin
Like a glimmer of light
Like a vision of life
And he's so perfect that I couldn't picture him if I tried

See some may come
Some may go
But I'll follow you wherever, you're the perfect mate for my soul
And I know why I lose control whenever I'm around you cause you given me

Your hand
And that's more than enough
Your glance
Is like jumping in the river of
Jordan
Purify me baby

It's like summertime always
Like it's sunny out all day
Whenever you smile
Sweeter than momma's homemade
And I thought every man was made the same way
But in a world of smoke and ashes boy, your are milk and honey.

See some may come,
Some may go
But you fill me up with your love
You're nourishment to my soul
And I know why I loose control
Whenever I'm around you
'Cause you've given me...

viernes, junio 18, 2010

I want it to be us, us two against the universe.



I often wake up and wish that we could fast forward through college and start our lives together. But when I really think about it, why rush? you're mine forever, might as well soak up every second. I never wanted to be one of those people who married their high school sweetheart, but things have a funny way of working out. So here's to loving you more with every beat of my heart. Forever.

domingo, junio 13, 2010

"3 years ago, I tried to kill myself."



















When my best friend found out, he dropped everything and came to see me even though we were fighting.

While laying next to me, he ran his fingers through my hair and said 'You can't die, I love you too much.'

We just got married last week.

Their LGMH.

jueves, junio 03, 2010

Complicated melody

If he were a color,
He'd be a deep dark forest green

If he were a car,

He'd be a long stretch limousine

With room for all of humanity inside

Cause he is so giving

And he is so wise

If he were a number

He'd be a five, cause he has such a brilliant mind

If were an animal

He'd be an ass
cause he's so stubborn sometimes

But if he were a song,

He'd be a complicated melody

That complicated fellow he,

I almost can not sing it on key.

But he means the world to me


If he were a building

He'd be a beautiful cathedral

Cause he's so traditionally spiritual

If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango

Exotic like a mango

But if he were a song

He'd be a complicated melody

That complicated fellow he,

I almost can not sing it on key.


But he means the world me

He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon,

He is just the reason for this here tune

Cause he means the world to me,

Said he means the world to me

Me, me, me, yes

He means the world to me.


Complicated melody, that complicated fellow

He's a complicated melody,
I almost cannot sing it on key.

martes, junio 01, 2010

Wings of forgiveness



















I just want you to know, after everything that we've been through,

I just want you to know that I still love you, that I still love you


Had to go across the water

just to find what was here in my heart all along
spent so much time trying to be right

that I was dead wrong
if Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
surely I can forgive you for your passion,
you're only human
let's shake free this gravity of resentment

and fly high, and fly high


You're only human

let's shake free this gravity of judgment

and fly high on the wings of forgiveness


Had to run to the arms of curiosity,
just to find what was here in my life all along
I had found that the art of simplicity

simply means making peace with your complexity

if Gandhi can forgive persecution, surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I'm only human

let's shake free this gravity of resentment,
and fly high, and fly high
You're only human,

let's shake free this gravity of judgment
,
and fly high on the wings of forgiveness.


I've searched for romance, flowers and affection

what I found is a lesson of what love really is
found the game of love is not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about how much you can give

After everything that we've been through I just want you to know that I still love you
I want you to know that I forgive you,

(thank you for teaching me how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know, you taught me how to fly
and I wrote this song to tell you this:
I'm better 'cause you taught me how to give.

I took a swim in the sea of guilt and misery

to find myself on an island, in the middle of nowhere

in my solitude, I asked to know the highest truth
and what I was told is to let own self be true
.

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion,
surely we can survive and find a resolution
Let's keep it moving

let's shake free this gravity of resentment
and fly high, and fly high
You're only human
let's shake free this gravity of judgment
and fly high, and fly high
let's keep it moving
let's shake free this gravity of commitment
and fly high on the wings of forgiveness


After everything that we've been through I just want you to know that I still love you
I want you to know that I still love you
and I wanna let you know how much you changed my life

I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
:
I'm better 'cause you taught me how to give


I still love you
I want you to know,

I still love you

want you to know,

I still love you
(and I always will love you)
and I wanna let you know
I forgive you

I wanna let you know that I still love you.

viernes, mayo 28, 2010

yeah you.


I thought I would be content just to get your friendship back. But I always want more and more and more, it's kinda hard not to like you.

martes, mayo 25, 2010

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE












To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short

- author unknown

domingo, mayo 23, 2010

I can't keep drowning for you.


You were it, my first love, I think the closest I’ve ever come. We were perfect for each other. And you made me so insanely happy, and vice versa. I know I did, from your smile down to your demands for hugs and kisses in your bed. We didn’t last long. I got too close and you took off, taking my heart with you.

I spent months trying to recover, trying desperately to recover. At first, falling in love with you, it felt like I was drowning, but the water was warm so it almost felt luxurious, enjoyable, like moving through warm honey. But then, you left, and it was like the water turned to ice and my lungs started to jam up and I couldn't breathe. I was struggling, kicking, failing to get to the top, because my heart felt dead. My limbs felt frozen in place, and I have no clue how I reached the surface. But I did, and the first breath I took was so painful, and the second, and the third. Eventually, I could hold myself up but I was still shivering for a while, even after I dragged myself out of that water. I spent 6 months, trying desperately to pull myself up, I was frozen all over. Yes you left me alone. I got up, but I'm still lonely. And I'm going to have to sit and pick up the pieces, though I don't even know if I have the energy to do it this time.

That's it, I can’t keep drowning for you.

runaway


Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane, never to return again. I don't know what she is made of, I would like to be that brave.

sábado, mayo 22, 2010

This too shall pass

















I've achieved so much in life,

but I'm an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine,
but my emotions are bankrupt.

My body is nice and strong,
but my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
but when night falls, so do my tears.

Sometimes the beat is so loud in my heart
that I can barely tell our voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
that I can barely hear what God says

But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

When the one that loved me the most,
turned around and hurt me the worst
Been doing my best to move on,
but the pain just keeps singing me songs.

My head and my heart are at war,
cause love ain't happening the way I want it
Feel like I'm about to break down,
can't hear the light at the end of the tunnel.
It's when I pray for healing in my heart
to be put back together what is torn apart
and I pray for quiet in my head
that I can hear clearly what God says

But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past,
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

All of a sudden I realized
that it only hurts worst to fight it
So I embrace my shadow, and hold on to the morning light

I hear the angels whisper that trouble don't have to last always
I hear the angels whisper even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday
I hear my angels whisper, I hear my angels whisper
This too shall pass.

Private party.


I'm having a private party, ain't nobody here but me, my angels, and my guitar singin' baby, look how far we've come here. I'm havin' a private party, learning how to love me, celebrating the woman I've become.

I tried to call my mother, but she didn't get where I was going; I called my boyfriend and he said 'call me back a little later baby'. I hung up the phone, I felt so alone, started to feel a little pity, that's when I realized, I gotta find the joy inside of me.

I'm gonna take off all my clothes, look at myself in the mirror
We're gonna have a conversation
We're gonna heal the disconnection
I don't remember when it started, but this is where it's gonna end
My body is beautiful and sacred, and I'm gonna celebrate it

All my life I've been looking for somebody else to make me whole. But I had to learn the hard way true love began with me, this is not ego or vanity,
I'm just celebrating me.

Sometimes I'm alone but never lonely
That's what I've come to realize
I've learned to love the quiet moments, the Sunday mornings of life
Where I can reach deep down inside, or out into the universe
I can laugh until I cry or I can cry away the hurt.

miércoles, mayo 19, 2010

Happy Birthday Girl













I hate this job 'cause I don't work with you.
I hate this mood that I'm in.
I hate the phone when it's not you.
I hate this time before I see you again.
I hate these people that are not you.
This photo that I've got of you.
I hate this empty room that you're not in.

Happy Birthday Girl.
You know I can't be with you. Of course I can't be with you, but I want to say
I'm happy with you
Unhappy without you.
And I hope you are, a happy birthday girl.
I hate my body 'cause it's not in you.
I hate these clothes that keep me from your skin.
I hate the need to eat when I can't eat with you.
I hate these empty places that you've been.
I hate these buildings, roads and fields; they're only useless, empty space that just seperates me from you.

Happy Birthday Girl.
You know I can't be with you.
Of course I can't be with you.

But I hope you are a happy birthday girl.

Lovers should be together,

And though we are apart.

You know I can't be with you.


Of course I can't be with you.

Lovers should be together

And it seems we are apart,

But I want to say;

I'm happy with you, unhappy without you.

I'm happy with you.

I'm happy with you.

Unhappy without you.

martes, mayo 18, 2010

I want to tell you













I want to tell you
My head is filled with things to say
When you're here
All those words, they seem to slip away

When I get near you,
The games begin to drag me down
It's all right
I'll make you maybe next time around

But if I seem to act unkind
It's only me, it's not my mind
That is confusing things.

I want to tell you
I feel hung up but I don't know why,
I don't mind
I could wait forever, I've got time

Sometimes I wish I knew you well,
Then I could speak my mind and tell you
Maybe you'd understand

I want to tell you
I feel hung up but I don't know why,
I don't mind
I could wait forever, I've got time, I've got time, I've got time.

lunes, mayo 17, 2010

little things.



And I can't stand you. Must everything you do make me wanna smile? Can I not like you for a while? No. You won't let me.

domingo, mayo 02, 2010

Beautiful.


















The time is right, I'm gonna pack my bags,
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountains I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow.

I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences
The sky opens to my prayers.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...

Please understand
That it's not that I don't care
But right know these walls are closing in on me

I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place where I can breathe,
I can breathe

I wanna go to place were I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might

I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light,
Where wrong becomes right.

I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
I wanna go to a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...

viernes, abril 30, 2010

The world just chew her up, and spat her out



What if you stopped doing things that tear us even more apart? It would be nice to feel the peace and love between us again, if you don't mind.

jueves, abril 29, 2010

dios


Necesito volver a francés para olvidarme por 3 horas semanales de todo todo.

miércoles, abril 28, 2010

Halo

Otra canción hermosa














Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight,
They didn't even make a sound.

I found a way to let you in,
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now.

It's like I've been awakened,
Every rule I had you breaking
It's the risk that I'm taking,
I ain't never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo,
You know you're my saving grace.

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo,
Pray it won't fade away.

I can feel your halo, halo, halo

Hit me like a ray of sun,
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light.

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
.

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
The risk that I'm taking,
I'm never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere I'm looking now,
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace.

You're everything I need and more,
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo,
Pray it won't fade away.

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo

Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now,
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo,
You know you're my saving grace.

You're everything I need and more,
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo,
Pray it won't fade away.

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo.
Halo.

jueves, abril 22, 2010

Nobody is perfect, until you fall in love with them.

To me, true love is the sweetest thing in life. That's why we're all either in love or looking for love. Sometimes you have to work for it -especially when life gets in the way- but I believe true, deep love is always worth fighting for.

Summer again - (500) days of summer

Ps: Mucha suerte en Europa soul hackerrrrrrrrrr te amo! (:

good times, good times.

estoy más que contenta porque en junio vuelvo a francés♥ Y porque estoy muy bien en la facultad, me encanta el lugar, la gente, los profesores, las cosas que hacemos (aunque me siento un poco vulnerable porque todo es nuevo y mucho más dificil), pero me encanta la libertad que te dan, va genial conmigo.

lunes, abril 19, 2010

pleaseeeeeee.

Estoy harta de la familia de mi viejo (sacando a mi abuelo que lo amo con todo mi ser, es de otro palo). Se hacen los chetos winners y son lo más mierda que hayyyyyyyyyyyy @: Me molesta que la hagan sentir mal a mamá, estoy a pasitos de contestarles MUY MAL y armar un re quilombo familiar, sepanlo.

X



Sometimes I like to pretend I'm fine without you, you know, It's only one of my games. A matter of time until I realize just how FUCKED UP everything is, and I start to wonder what did I do to be where I am now. Right now I'd like to go to that park and sit in the bench where you first told me you loved me, just sit there, all night long, crying my heart out loud. But of course, I can't. Today is one of those days when I really feel I'll never love again.

domingo, abril 18, 2010

Imperfect calm


Aunque extraño a muchas personas y lugares, aunque mi vida cambió totalmente este año, creo que también me están pasando cosas buenas; y después de todo por algo pasan, supongo que la forma en que yo me imagino que tiene que ser todo evidentemente no es la que rige mi vida, gracias a los problemas y a las situaciones difíciles que me toca atravesar a veces, encuentro fuerza que no sabía que tenía, crezco y también voy cambiando, madurando de a poco. No me quejo de lo que me está tocando vivir porque sé que es el camino que tengo que transitar para en algún momento, ser y estar mejor.

viernes, abril 16, 2010

It won't be long

It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah
'Til I belong to you.

Every night, when everybody has fun,
Here am I sitting all on my own,

It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah
'Til I belong to you.

Since you left me I'm so alone,
Now you're coming, you're coming on home,
I'll be good like I know I should,
You're coming home, you're coming home.

Every night the tears come down from my eyes,
Every day I've done nothing but cry.

It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah
'Til I belong to you.

Since you left me I'm so alone,
Now you're coming, you're coming on home,
I'll be good like I know I should,
You're coming home, you're coming home.

Every day we'll be happy, I know,
Now I know that you won't leave me no more.

It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah, yeah, yeah
It won't be long yeah
'Til I belong to you.

JET

No ando con muchas ganas de escribir, asique va otro tema que me encanta (come around again).


















Yeah I'm waitin' for you, it's been so long
Yeah I'm waitin' for you, it's been so long
Yeah I'm sad when I'm on my own
They said it takes a long long time
If it's not too much
Could you hear me now

You promised me you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again
You promised me you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again, yeah

Yeah I'm waitin' for you, it's been so long
Yeah I'm sad when I'm all alone
They said it takes a long, long time
If it's not too much,
Could you hear me now?

You promised me you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again
You promised me you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again

Yeah there's something I was thinking about
Get it out of my head
Yeah there's something I was kicking around,
Somethin' you said
I don't know when I'm right
I only know when I'm wrong
So when you're gonna leave some light to show it all?
And keep the lights from going off
Cause I don't see

Cause I'm waitin'
For you, it's been so long
Yeah I'm lost but I'm at home
They said it takes a long long time
If it's not too much
Could you hear me now

Come around again
Come around again
Please come around again.

jueves, abril 15, 2010

rescue me or bury me

Summer nights, such lonely times.
This memory does bleed, I need you in my life again.
Fantasies release me from the bondage of my fate.
The days pass like the falling rain,

your eyes reflect like mirrors
the beauty in your soul.
But anger shatters precious glass.


Can't you recall the intimate secrets that we truly shared? The faith and trust we swore would always last?

I only have myself to blame
(you know it takes my breath away to see you cry)
To love i implore, i scream in the air claw at my chest,
rip out my hair,
embrace me or let my spririt die.
Rescue me or bury me
,
rescue me or bury me.


Time is like a prison cell
for those whose crime is loneliness when freedom's banging at their door
When all has been said and done, you must decide.
Swallow your pride,
and
reach out
and take these hands forevermore.

Rescue me or bury me,
rescue me or bury me
.

(lovers are crazy)


She’s trying to love him back,
but it doesn’t seem to work.
She’s striving to make it last
but it’s tearing up her heart and soul.

miércoles, abril 14, 2010

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


Que día horribleeeee. Alguien que me explique por qué me puse a llorar porque no me podía dormirrrrrrr. Odio a mi vecino con todo mi ser-